where i’ve been and where i’m going

as i stay up in my Pittsburgh dorm room waiting for Noah Kahan to drop Northern Attitude featuring Hozier, i thought it was finally time to update the masses on where I’ve been and where I’m going.

hi there! I’m delaney

A post with my actual voice behind it may seem foreign. From the day I formed this blog, I wrote as a mimic, mimicking the SEO life coach food bloggers that I saw as successful on pinterest, so yes, you probably have no idea what I really sound like. In the past, my personality has never been a focal point of this site; I explicitly stated I wouldn’t share the story of my life while one scrolls for a cookie recipe. The goal was always to create cool ass recipes, share them with the world anonymously, and leave.

This stealth way of distribution worked in high school when I had no writing tone (or desire to write). But my creative voice developed, the personless void to where I posted cookie recipes to became a place I dreaded. Knowing my internet optimized voice was nothing of the one I use in my everyday speech made me dread sharing this place irl. I knew they would open it and read things that sounded nothing like the person they knew wrote it.

Welp, the era of the girlboss food blogger is now over. For starters, I no longer have a kitchen. While this is a new development in the scheme of how long I’ve been radio silent, my kitchenless state should clue you in on what this site will look like at least for the next year: a whole lot of me thinking out loud.

If you are a girlie who was really only ever here for my yearly Christmas cookie extravaganza or actually insufferable gram based cake recipes (i still swear by the kitchen scale though lol), I won’t be offended if this is where we depart. Live your best kitchen aid life. And with that, I’m at peace of reclaiming this little corner of the internet that i worked so fucking hard on into a something new and that I want it to be, not what the stay at home Pinterest mommies want.

A year ago, writing would not be a cathartic activity I completed with my own internal motivation. My whole life I’ve been told I was an immature writer, a harsh writer, and too focused in the rights and wrongs to ever get anything on a page. College essays made me hate writing more than anything with both the artist in me screaming for the stifling formats and the analytical me screaming over the expectation of creativity. College essays are where I’ve been frankly. However, the hours and hours spent writing did teach me something – I have a weird speaky writey conversational formal writing tone that’s actually pretty cool, or at least I think it is.

So that’s what the future of this site looks like – me rambling into the abyss and those who want to read it reading. It’ll be a lot of rants about art school (its actually really hard), the things I’m learning as I lead into this huge collegey moment in my life, art, literature, sociology, and moments in life I think are worth sharing. One of my favorite quotes is, “I stop at lemonade stands because I want to live in a world where lemonade stands exist.” Thats kinda the vibe of what I plan on writing, giving things I think that should be written on a page a page to be written on. If it goes somewhere, great. If it doesn’t, also great, I got my words off my chest and just maybe someone enjoyed them.

It’s a very public journal of sorts, but frankly, I kind of love that.

None of the baking content is going anywhere, and in those rare moments that I have a kitchen, it will hopefully return. I’ve spent a good bit of the last year baking, but having to write for college makes one really not want to write a blog post, and applying to art school really does not make one want to pull out a camera. Also like surprise! I go to theatre/art school?

so yea, that’s where I’ve been.

The clock is about to strike 12 which means it is just about time to sit in my dark dorm room channeling the energies of Noah Kahan and Hozier. But I have genuinely said all I think there is at this time. If you read this far down, you’re a real one.

Love you all, good night

update: noah kahan x hozier Northern Attitude is simply life changing and I will never shut up about it.